My son, I have suffered depression, anxiety and inexplicable timidity. I have loved people who didn’t love me back. I fought silent wars for people who never knew I did. I was there for people who were not there for me in my times of need.
But its alright, I always had God to talk to and be real with. He never let me down and he never sugar-coated the truth. I learnt that our affinity for attention, praise and gratification results in us being sad, depressed beings when we do not receive it as and when we expect it. Thus all I felt was a result of not getting back all I gave to others , the love, the care, the attention, the praises, the attempts, all of it.
In all that sadness, I found the beauty of being one. My son, in this world you have to prepare for the possibly of solitude, where you will stand alone, fight alone, feel alone and actually be alone. It is in that moment my son that you realize the true nature of your own being. You might break down, which is most likely, but afterwards you will start seeing things in a new light. You will see life and the people in it for who they truely are but most importantly you will find your true self. Even if you are always surrounded by people, you will still need time alone, so that you find yourself. Knowledge of self is mastery of all. The journey might be gruesome and depressing, but it will teach you a valuable lesson my son. It will teach you to love yourself enough before you love others, to understand yourself better so that you understand that everyone has their strengths and weaknesses, passions and desires, angels and demons, just like you. It will help you know how to treat others too.
When all is said and done, pass on the wisdom you would have found.